ALL GOD provisions laid down a silver
lining
Every man and woman created by God absolutely needs a
partner who complete each other and complement each other as God created Eve to
be a friend and partner to the
Prophet Adam.
Almost all men, has made himself a place to stay for
people who are admired. Not only to
have attractive appearance but also has
a full package of perfection so that it becomes an example to all - loved by
wife, respected and mentor to children, admired by family and society and
thus wants to succeed in this life and
the afterlife in order to please God. Had such a man possessed by a boy, sure
many women who adored him. Therefore
all men should strive to be the perfect guy and try to fulfill the desires
of the woman. If you crave to have a partner that meets all, no
one should try to be a man as perfect as possible. The goal of building a
family with plenty of happiness and
blessing is not to be a dream that
could not be achieved if we all have a strong commitment to achieve it. As
the Malay saying goes, "Where there's a will, there's a way".
I've read posts tips on how to be "exemplary
husband" dreams of all women or wives. Once in essence refine tips
outlined that it is a reality in my own
life that have been tested by God after my wife who loved and as an assistant
principal in the surf boat of our household had suffered a brain hemorrhage
happen on 2 March 2001 in swindling
surgery to save her life. The effect
of head surgery (AVM) her beautiful and
deeply loved by me has got permanent disability as people with disabilities
(PWDs). Next to the body's right side
was paralyzed. Since that moment began
the sad and grim episode in our family ,
Could it be that this is a disaster of God against me in retaliation for the sins I ever do this
down before God or a test to see how this dwarf servants who can handle it and
try to keep the surf boat even with a thousand difficulties and hardships.
Thank God the guidance of Allah has given strength to me as the dwarf slaves rowing boat of my families to achieve Allah pleasant , direction
even if it had to contend with deprivation as the wife of a top aide had
earlier withdrawn by him favors health, Starting from the date of surgery until
the day of judgment beloved wife has become a Disabilities person (PWDs) who
need help nearly almost 100 per cent to
take care of her daily life need because the right side of the body (arms and
legs) cannot function (paralysis).
Thank God I'm very
grateful that God has given me the courage to face all this. Uncountable has
now passed more than 15 years. If
computed with our wedding last for 35
years, the reality is that almost half of our marriage was passed with excruciating
pain of my wife. Anyhow so thank God
and myself as husband as head of the family can still achieve happiness in
married life since the first day of our marriage to date. Thank God whose gave
us with 7 children with 4 boys and 3 girls. And has now also awarded six
grandchildren.
Since the date of sacred respect I had gone
through the vagaries of life filled with trials and tribulations, as the
wife who was the "General Manager" in the house is no longer able to
work, but she need someone to take care of her daily living needs such as
bathing, eating, defecate and small, pushed by well chairs, and also to enhance
the warring of payer dress.
For the first month after my wife bring back home for
further treatment. I've hired an Indonesian maids residents through Employment
Agency to do housekeeping job and take care of my wife. The overall cost to the
destination was spent almost RM 4,000.00, the first month I feel very relieved
because the work of an existing home helpers who may be expected. But when
entering second and third months beginning there are elements that are not
pleasant, When I went home, my wives initially pensive and in tears, when I ask
why, with cries she said headaches and
heartaches because maid is no longer sufficient in running work at home. This situation made me
worried it will be effect my wife wellness. It forced me to take drastic action
to terminate Indonesia maid
contract, just to please my wife because I was advice by my wife doctor take
care of my wife heart and emotions , because if she in the prolong sad and
stress, it will cause the bleeding in
the brain, Possible the second attack will be serious illness and may be fatal.
For that I resolutely made the decision to lay helpers,
and put intention for doing all house
jobs by myself. My hope the decision taken will be give the stimulation of my wife mind, so that she was always happy and cheerful, hopefully my wives healing will be faster and
she able to regain her health as normal person and back to serve as wife and
mother.
Beginning that date, I do by my own all housework such as
cooking, cleaning clothes and other work
-related, while keeping the needs of my wife daily living need. Such as bathing, eating and drinking, taking wudud and
wearing the veil to pray. Fortunately I've got a little experience in relation
to household chores for the first time I've ever been helping my mothers and
sisters to do the housework, to fill my spare time who was then sitting at home
only because of a sore knee, and was given sick leave for one year by the school after the Junior Certificate of
Education (LCE) in 1969.
Now time period has reached nearly 15 years and I can do as
a routine daily life. Thanksgiving is no value to extend my God, Most Gracious
and buffer, for their strength of mind, his stunted physical to do all this for
housework and also working in the office for financial income can be refined as
it is. More importantly God gave and joy in my heart in the face of various
challenges of life. And guides the work concerned I can do it easily without
feeling sincerity and weary. Thank God.
As a sign of gratitude to God for guidance to give, strength, perseverance
and fortitude to His servants who have so little in the face of challenges and
suspicions. When remembered back a
relatively long period of time, this tiny heart infusion to book a routine life
that I have experienced in taking care of paralyzed wife nearly 15 years
and continues to this day. Hopefully these notes can be recorded reading
materials to prospective husbands or husbands who had undergone such problem in
their home, at least to give some info to be made an example and borders. For
me the consent of God that inspired me to write this book is a meager contribution as a sign of mercy
and thankful to give happiness to our family that I entrusted a leading role.
These records may be as a guide in advance or taken exemplary by
the spouse whose partner has suffered permanent disability, as in the
early days of these allegations was the most virulent, if we are not patient
and perseverance are likely to households will be built collapsed and crashed
in mid-street (I was also haunted by feelings to marry another advance in the
early stages).
In the United States, approximately 780,000 Americans suffer
a new or recurrent stroke each year. The median survival time after a first
stroke for individuals age 60-69 years is 6.8 years for men and 7.4 years for
women; for those older than age 80 years, the median survival time is 1.8 years
for men and 3.1 years for women. Fifty percent to 70% of stroke survivors
regain functional independence; 15-30% are permanently disabled.
Due to the statistic given, I keen to write my experience as
care giver to my stroke wife for more 15
years, through my experienced and with the ability to adopted the patient as
the responsibility of husband to take care and give her full support either
emotionally and her daily living need. On other word caring by holistic
approach able to speed up the healing process and changes to recover back to
normal position is more and I manage to give her the hope for future life and
she has recover up to 90 % back to normal condition.
A couple of good friends told me, if such a situation
suffered by him, he does not believe it can survive for a very long time,
he will marry another women to take care
of his daily needs. In fact, they never told that what I experienced was not a
disaster but it is a gift of God to me, If their predictions are correct, I am very
grateful that God has chosen me as a slave to the test. I also sought to always
correct the intentions of my heart that
this dwarf to avoid any sense of pride or ripples on what recorded in the
booklet. Ye Allah forgive me thy servant so this dwarf. Yes Amen Lord of
Universe.
The second test may God give it to me again because my first
test on the 60s this week, with permission I can go through until I was in a
situation as a retired civil servant, who has reached the age of 62 years. Sometimes when I'm off the fate of my life
since childhood so that it becomes a senior citizen is given the title “Tokayah”
by grandchildren, every time I tested. During my time in the youth category has
suffered knee joint disease. Although I
call my father WAN had plotted to treat it either in private clinics, hospitals
and through traditional medicine, the disease never goes away. In fact, the disease
has reached climax in 1969, knee swollen has issued a yellowish water that
smelled very fishy. I was pleased with what the experienced and continued
schooling for LCE examination in October 1996. I underwent tests at the
hospital as necessary in the patient in the ward. Early results LCE, I managed
to obtain the A grade. That I had to go
through life as a youth with the knee pain and walking with a cane. I was given
sick leave by the school, but the pain never goes away, so I was stranded alone
in my studies compared with other
classmates.
In 1972, they all continued their studies in the sixth form
as a preparation to the University. While I was waving at home by looking at
LCE certificates which are not able to
get jobs for this lowest certificate.
Sometimes I cry alone in my reckoning future uncertain. To
ensure that I can be independent in the future when both parents are gone
later, I decided to learn to repair radio and TV and hope would be to
mechanical Radio / TV, but so I could not continue learning my knee not heal
yet. Until in 1972 I decided to take
the SPM for private candidates. Long story short, I thank God for His blessings
secured squared SPM. And in 1975
managed to get four principal
STP and further studies at USM in 1975 and obtained Bachelor of Science degree in 1980, followed by
second degree of Mater of Science (Project Manager) in 1992. I received an offer to continue study to the
degree of Doctor of Philosophy in 2001. Anyhow I had asked to withdraw due my wife was attack by stroke in 2001 ,
that cause me lack of time to care for
my stroke wife.
Given the vagaries of human life is full of challenges
dwarfs since adolescence, youth, adult and work covered by the stories of
sorrow and challenging, I was aware that God is always testing me but so Allah
has full knowledge test given that it is appropriate to the abilities and
capabilities of me to confront these tests. I remain grateful
to God Almighty and All-Knowing, as with confers patience and resilience of my
mind for the challenges of life since adolescence, adulthood and old dusk ( at
the silver hair) always tested with the pain and suffering in life, it is a priceless
gift because pain , sorrow and doom who often traveled all the way of my life has been deeply impacted the attitudes
and behavior toward me every time, with difficulties to overcome all the
hardships and pain that can be said, every time I face it makes me always
closer to God, because every time I pray to him to give me strength and
guidance so that all the hardship, pain and traveled can be faced successfully. Situations like
this make my life does not deviate much from the way of life outlined by Islam.
Thank God.
I still remember how the second test by Mighty Allah to me
and my wife happen to quickly without any alert. It was happen very fast. After
completion Isha prayers, Myself and my
second son sending the wife to the
hospital. We arrived at the emergency department about 9.45pm. After
registration and waiting around for
almost 2 hours because at that time there was a serious accident, then the
doctor called my wife into the room for
inspection. I accompany my wife to the examination room, the doctor has
to undergo rigorous inspection and advise my wife to warded to undergo further examination by a specialist
doctor to determine the cause of the
disease. The wife admitted about 1am. After the completion of the entry of the
wife to the hospital. I informed my wife had to return home to rest and our
second son who will take care of her mother in the hospital.
The next day I got up early as usual before dawn, to prepare
for the dawn prayer. Suddenly the ringing phone rang and I immediately picked
up the phone and heard the voice of algae son in a state of anxiety "Dad
be coming soon to a hospital, unconscious mother near dawn," I answered
spontaneously "ok Bang, wait there, Dad
will be there after dawn prayer.
Arriving at the hospital I found my son lonely in the
ward, waiting at the bedside of his
mother. I was told by him that his mother had brought to the X ray to undergo
X-ray of the head and also perform an angiogram. At about 7 am my wife had undergone the procedure of
examination and she was still in a
coma.
My wife has moved out of the normal ward to ward Intensive
Care Unit. After the film, x ray and
also angiogram report obtained, the doctor told me that my wife suffered a
minor stroke, and now there is blood in the brain that cause and have it point
to a ventilator to breathe for oxygen being pumped to taste. Also note that my
wife needed head surgery immediately before the blood in her brain go down to
the ear. If this happens my wife could not be saved possibly she will die.
The doctor also notified me the operation can not be started
immediately due to specialist neurosurgeon was not on duty, he
went abroad for medical seminar.” We
only pray that the treatment given at that time to stabilize the situation”.
Also the doctor told that I could inform the next of kin to come for visit my
wife in the hospital due to her condition was
critical, probably she will go forever in the near future.
When I was told my situation
is totally critical, I take discussing with my father. If the wife died where his
remains will be buried later. Father advised to me to be calm and patient, and
multiplied prayer and ask God's help. Pray for
hope my wife can be saved. After the noon prayers
I chat and hope God may be given a solution to rescue my wife.
With the unexpectedly I was informed by my sister, that
there will be VIP guests came to visit my wife at about 2 pm. When a VIP guest comes to the ward, She urged
physicians to provide the best treatment to
my wife, so VIP guests had phoned his sister a VVIP, and informed her
sister would visit at 3pm.
Exactly at 3 pm VVIP accompanied by ADC and some of the State Senior Officer had
come to visit my wife in hospital, during the visit She had instructed the
doctor to send my wife to the Private
Hospital, in Kuala Lumpur for immediate
surgery. Subsequently I was asked by the management of the hospital to buy a total of 14 seats of Plane tickets, for
allowing my wife to send to the Kuala Lumpur with Malaysia Airlines
on night flight..
I and my colleague (a
Major Retired Air Force D Raja Malaysia) went to the Air Port. Upon arrival I was informed that the tickets
was sold out completely. No more unsold tickets for travel the next 2 days.
I was shock and
choked whenever I hear it, full of feeling frustrated and just pray to God to
give me a way to resolve the complex issue. While driving with friends to the hospital, my
friend suggested he would try to call Sugai Besi RMAF for Mercy Flight.. When he phoned to the RMAF, we were informed that the ADC to
the VVIP has made application for RMAF make Mercy Flight to transmit a
patient from Kota Bharu to Kuala Lumpur.
When we heared the good news, I was so grateful to God who has given me a way
to overcome the problem that is so acute, and bogged down by a lack of time and
necessary.
The RMAF asked me getting ready at 7.30 pm for departure to
KL. Therefore, the hospital also meninta so I bought a plane ticket to return
from KL to Kota Bharu to two hospital staff (1 doctor and 1 nurse). I bought a
ticket as required. At 8.50pm I, wife, doctor and nurse to escort the ambulance
ride to the airport to board a military
plane that was waiting there.
At approximately 9.25 pm CN235 aircraft departed RMAF Kuala Lumpur, while in the
course of about 30 minutes in the air, the doctor checks the condition of my
wife in a coma and respiratory system assisted with manually pumped by a nurse using the hands to help my wife's breathing
, I was sitting beside my wife, we were both watching the situation .
Suddenly the laptop used by doctors run
out of battery and the monitor black
out. The situation become panic, causing doctors can not control blood pressure,
breathing and pulse due to monitor display not functional,. Doctors began to
look nervous and anxious, I was sitting next to the bed of my wife, I was not
able to do anything, just my lip service never fail to read verses from the Koran
and pray. When doctors tried to check
my wife pulse on your wrist, but doctors
were unable to detect it. Doctors began turning around his head in the note by the nurse with an
empty and hopeless, without any speech. I began to fidget and thought-mind that my wife will be gone forever. Tears
streamed down my cheeks without realizing it. What can I do, I just pray to God and read some verses of the Quran which I memorize..
In the period when I was in a state of some anxiety,
suddenly awakened by the sound of the doctor "Thank God" as he lifted
his hand to signal OK, and look at his face began to calm and cheerful with a smile of gratitude followed by a
nurse escort. At 10.30pm we were told
by Air Force Sergeant our flight would
arrive at the Subang Airport shortly.
Arriving at the airport, apparently an ambulance was waiting to take us
to the Private Hospital in Kuala Lumpur. The journey from the airport to the
hospital Kuala Lumpur takes about 1
hour. On the way to the hospital, we had
to drive slowly because of heavy vehicles. I can only pray to God that our
travel facilitation and beloved wife
can be saved.
When arriving at the hospital, doctors neurosurgeon to wait and as soon as my wife got put into
hospital, doctors continue to scrutiny. Then the doctor called Dr Arumugam (neurosurgeon) have told
me that the situation is unstable wife. He is currently undergoing surgery for
completion at 2am. The doctor said that if I agreed my wife's head surgery will
be done tomorrow morning at 8am. I thus agree with the recommendations of
doctors in view of his wife in a stable condition. The doctor also told me that
my wife after-effects of surgery may have the right of innocent involving the
feet and hands. And then doctor also
tell my wife could not speak because his tongue will become short and stiff.
Next I was asked to pay a deposit of RM5,000.00. I was
surprised on hearing of deposit must be
paid, even thought in my heart that if ordinary people who cannot afford how to
get treatment during such emergency. Luckily I have a credit card. Deposits
paid by credit card.
So I started to make the calculation that if she was not
operated on, her chances of survival are slim. She had to rely on a breathing machine. So I was determined
to allow my wife to surgery by the surgeon to remove the blood in her brain. I
expect if the surgery done, She have 50% chance either alive or dead. So I made a
reasonable decision that must be made.
If she undergo for surgery 50% chance of
survival will be gain, but if we mixed
with the chance of survival by 50% after surgery, mean we have the opportunity
and tried 50% + 25-30% chance of successful surgery. After taking the estimated
chance of surgical risk and postoperative prognosis is better, if we take the
turn without any action just surrender to the Divine alone. After considering
several possibilities I see a doctor and inform him that I have agreed to sign a letter of
authorization to operate. Upon surrender of the form I told the doctor, "I
gave mandate to you to do anything just to save her life, I will pray to the
God".
After a discussion with my doctor continued to make some phone calls
to people contacts, such as SS Dato 'Mufti, SS Dato' Deputy Mufti, SS Dato Prime Khadi
and some of the religious teacher, I told them that my wife facing acute brain
bleeding with coma situation and need urgently to do operation. I back them to
pray for the safety of my wife and able to go for operation with save and
successfully.
I personally pray to God hopping for His blessing to save my
wife and she will be heal as soon as possible. That night I could not sleep well, my mind
still remembered the wife in coma situation, and try to imagine what would
happen to my family if my beloved wife
can not be saved. Try imagining what will happen to my seven children whose are still growing up in school, They are
necessary to get a mother's love and cares, especially for my youngest daughter, I cannot imagine how
the future of the youngest child of four years old. Whether it can grow up like
other children if their mothers had gone forever, and what happens if I also
need a pouring of love and care needs of everyday life, to replace a missing
wife, may be forced to marry another, and what will be so to structure our
family before this which is happy.
The next day almost 7.50am, I and my family had been in the
hospital awaiting at surgery ward.
Exactly at 8.00 am a nurse and aide to bring my wife to the operating room. I'm
anxiously waiting outside the operating room. Surgery is expected to take
between 3 to 4 hours. While waiting for
the completion of the surgery, I was just praying and recite a few verses from
the Koran, pray to Allah for successful surgery.
At 11.50am wife was
taken out from the operating room and brought into the ICU ward. The doctor on
duty informed me that my wife will
recover back in about 3 to 4 hours after that. I was allowed to stay in lobby
and only can see my wife bad through the glass screen. A few hours after the surgery my wife still
unconscious.
At 3.00 pm I was called by the nurse in charge, who allowed me to sit on the side of the bed where my wife
was given treatment. After being on the side of my wife about 30 minutes later. My wife began to move her hand slowly even her eyes still closed. At 4.15pm my wife began to open his eyes but still looks
weak between conscious and unconscious. My heart steadfastly waiting on the
side of her bed while my mouth reading sentences of Quran and pray to Allah.
At about 4.25pm my wife opened her eyes and issuing the
word "hungry". Alhamdulillah I thank God who has given my wife, how
happy a man who was told by doctors that his wife might not be able to speak
after surgery. However the power of the Most High, and He overcame the power of
all other creatures in this universe.
The next day my wife was able to reflect the rapid recovery
and I have never been complacent guard every time, except for one or two hours
a day will return to nephew house to bathe and change clothes. This routine
continues until the day 29. My wife was allowed to return for further treatment
in hospital, Kota Bharu.
On the last day at Hospital Ampang, The doctor whose treated
my wife said to me that my wife is
lucky, because the nerves of the brain that been clipped to stop blood bleeding
, is the location of "memory".
If any thing goes wrong during surgical
procedure it will cause my wife's lost his memory. How grateful I am to Allah
the Merciful for saving my wife and still provide guidance to enable the wife
to speak normally.
One more thing the doctor said that the rapid heal recovery
of my, one of the factor that help her
to regain faster healing process due to my role as husband whose go along and encouraging her to recover
quickly. The doctor said that I was
"exemplary husband" who is so
keeping loyal to take care my wife until her
quickly recovered. "Not
happy kid looking for a faithful husband like you" dedicated the doctor to me, I just smiled with that
praise, because the only to praise should be to Allah. All it is God's gift.
When I was getting ready to bring home my wife to Kota
Bharu. I was told by the hospital management that the total cost of the treatment
my wife was RM25,000.00. But once the employer has provided a letter of guarantee
to pay all costs incurred by the Company insurance scheme. If it exceed the allowed amount, the rest I had to
pay for my selves.
On day of 29, my wife was discharge from Kuala Lumpur Private Hospital. She will get
her further treatment at Hospital in Kota Bharu, Kelantan.
The anxious moments
that I have experienced with my loved wife, the atmosphere of our household who
previously filled with love and affection, have begun the grim because my wife
is sick an now she become disable person
after the stroke attack She now
need others to help her for everything of her daily
living need.
Starting on that date, I must take care of my sick spouse with fully responsibility and need care around
the clock, and also take care of the household for growing children who are
still under study and schooling. Various
disordered thoughts in my mind at that time and just trust in God that all my
affairs and family in facilitation by Him. Amin.
Wallahu'alm.
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